And with the confidence of a rampante
You didn’t realise you were abducted
And with the bombing of a headquarter
I couldn’t tell you how it all started
Such a mistake was made in the 60s
But I don’t care for boomer in partake
I was not there
I’m here, I live in the present tense, I’m here to stay awake and you will never feel regret again
I’m right here, in the comfort of your bed, the safety of your house and the pleasure of your scent
I’m here, I’m there, I’m right fucking everywhere
I had this dream once where a boulder was thrown from a giant slingshot straight through my heart
I know it sounds stupid, but I’ve never felt more fear as when I thought of this as I died
Death means complications, not only do I not know what comes next but I’m hurting what’s now left behind
And there comes depression, poisoning like a parasite, depriving all excitement from things I once liked
Now I’m most awakened, fearing for the fears to come back whilst I’m paying for 3 hours a night
Don’t get it mistaken, I am not regretting, I am just afraid for reality to think that I’m lying
Can someone just please listen to me for once?
I'm going to rush until I make it
Like when the rich pretend they're failing
Only not the same level as it ever was
And state the tales of glory,
Involving different stories
Consuming, when there's nothing left at all
I'm talking now
Don't interrupt me
Ever
Again
I'm going to trust imperialism,
Believe that no-one here is reasonable
Oh baby, what could ever go wrong?
Let's privatise as forfeit,
And so divide and conquer all land
Oh baby, what could ever go wrong?
Jus primae noctis
Sic semper tyrannis
Pulcher et fortissimus
Blurred uncanny valley
And so, when the light goes out again
And the world comes to an end
We'll see how much this helps you forget
At last all fear that you’ll break up with me
Has gone to cease with the quietest grip
I’m lost and hindered but at least you’re also here
The needle tears a hole
This is no familiar sting
And you tell me not to panic
But I don’t know how I feel
I’m done for today
Where am I, where’d you go
I feel myself dissociating
I feel weird, I feel cold
And there’s no warmth that could embrace me
Disinhibited and frail, well the future near is far from perfect
The moon’s so bright tonight, but the stars have decided to hide
How can I be so high, yet at the lowest point of my life
Death comes to us all, but I am not prepared to die
The scene is done, the crowd’s gone home
The cry for help, the void response
Scars and wounds around my body
Didn’t think I’d live to tell my story
Yet you don’t deserve to have that glory
Alas
Funny how these things can happen
Bound to repeat what hasn’t started
And yet I still can’t help and stop it
Your number’s all my phone wants calling
It’s so unfair
And I break on through the commonplace
What fear, regret and pain entail
But this tank does not reflect my views
I’m here because I wanted to
Unplugging all my links to you
Feels like what I was meant to do
There’s a sea of dead fish out this land
My distinctive internal desires
I struggle to give out complaints
I always think it’s all the same
My comments try to be as clear as day
But promises are much too frail
I salute you my eternal brother
I salute you my eternal brother
I salute you my eternal brother
My name will fill your mind and wash your thoughts
No more tricks, no more lies
No more artificial ties
Just standing on my own defeat
It’s time to let go
Flowers sure are pretty aren't they
Wish I’d done the right thing to make them stay
Last thing I wanted was to end like this
Last thing I did was turn into this
Last thing I meant to cause was this
But this is the first thing I deserve
I wish I could make it all go away
And I told you my whole story
And we stayed up until the morning
And I showed you my recordings
But you asked me to change
You asked me to change
I promised I’d change
I promised I’d change
Thats all you wanted from me
Change
And what if I did
And it all felt wrong
And what if it’s true
And what if I didn’t want to fall
Again and again
But I promised you I’d change
And on, and on
That’s all you wanted to hear
I haven’t moved on
My skin got peeled
Everyone’s wondering what caused it
It could’ve been the sun, could’ve been a fall, could be any sort of wound
Or it could’ve been you
I said hi to you once, your response was very dry
I said hi to you so many times
So many times
The thought of you clear in my eyes
The day of faith, you’re far behind
My greetings were disrupted every single fucking time
And I stared right at the mirror trying to understand why you were laughing
But all I saw was someone whose flesh had just began to crumble
And the pain was so disturbing I just thought my mind was turning
But it wasn’t my decision to be turned from man to puppet
All devotions to my purpose were becoming so uncertain
All creations in my image were delivered by mistake
And the stakes of all my loving are intending harakiri
All of this because you just said:
“Once was enough”
Once was more than enough
And I said hi to you so many times
But clearly it was not what you deserved
I’m sorry for being myself when I should’ve been someone else
My skin got peeled
My heart got ripped out of my body
My lungs filled up with water
My neck broke
And the last thing that my stupid brain could come up with is:
The banana got peeled
I looked down from the motorway
And I saw a milllion ash covered men
And they spoke to me in tongues
But I could not hear, for the deafening sound of the articulated lorry that shot straight through me
I walked on, down the dark lit path
With the taste of iron on my tongue
I took one last look back, and the men had turn to stone
Sculpted like Strazza’s veil, even their tears frozen
I heard a heavenly chord
As I opened up my eyes
And I saw the light on the throne speaking,
“George, I’m sorry but tens of millions must die”
Caring to know
Caring to know that I’m in pain
Nearly I saw the end beneath the bugs on my bed
When all got caught inside my hand
Between my fingers and nails
My friends we made it all ourselves
Ourselves
Ourselves
We made the earth
And I’m far too blind to see
And I’m desperate for the cries to keep me
Awake at night
My own of course,
My own demise
I’m afraid to be a man, I’m afraid
It means so much
There’s only one more chance to make it right with those who’ve served me nice
Fairly tethered and completely fine
My friends we made it all ourselves (My cynical fantasy is coming to an end)
Ourselves, ourselves, we made the Earth (In the night garden you may find cover, find me then)
My friends we made it all ourselves (Under all the rubble, more and more trouble, give me your hand)
Ourselves, ourselves, we made the Earth (And build the place where you first thought and spoke “I belong”)
I skirt above the surface, clandestine approach to the noise
I equate to nothing, with the wind slashing through my skin with each blow
If you’re just like your father, I’m all the people who have hurt me
I’m buried under rubble, not an ounce of me wants out
So I’m sorry I’ll find the time
I swear I saw the end
I wish I cared
But I don’t know why